Thursday, September 29, 2011

That kind of day

It almost feels like it's a bad monday and my week is starting all over again. I already need another vacation from work and I've only been back about a month. I'm frustrated with the people around me, thought I love the company I work for. I recently got feedback of my job performance, and while mostly positive there were a few negative comments. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect and absolutely take feedback well and work to improve on any weaknesses....I'm not by any means perfect that's for sure. But one or two of those negative comments felt like a personal hit on me and my personality. Some one went as far as to say that they didn't think I was capable of 'appreciating' someone. That one cut me like a knife, because it is probably the most opposite of what I try and do at work. I appreciate everyone I work with and thank them for their hard work everyday, even if it isn't up to what I would consider hard work. I was in tears last night and woke up this morning sick to my stomach to go into work. I just don't even know how to act anymore. My lovely husband says that I need to take it with a grain of salt and to look at the rest of the feedback. My bosses are obviously happy so do I let someone who works under me, ruin my heart like that and break me down like I haven't been broken down in a long time? I'm not sure where to go from here, I just know that I don't know how much more my heart/head/feelings can take. I think it's time to explore other options of employment....

Here's to hoping the rest of my day gets better and not letting negative or hurtful things attack me.

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