Things are looking up

Hi everyone! I've spent time on my other blog and realized I was slowly letting this one go into the ground. So for an update!! My last post was about work, luckily things have definitely gotten better and I was given some great advice on how to deal with things of that nature. I'm slowly learning how to take some things with a grain of salt and not get so worked up. It takes time and sometimes meditation, but it's totally worth it in the end because I'm not taking it out on my husband later. We have a fun plan in place for the next year or so! We've been looking into buying some land in South-eastern Colorado and I couldn't be more excited. Though I've been raised a city girl my whole life, I am just so at peace in the country with the quiet. We're looking at about 35-40 acres, just to have space and eventually plant gardens, orchards, even raise some chickens and a pig or two help sustain our family. We've been very passionate about responsibly raised food and lately with all the food safety scares and documentaries about what is really going on with our food supply is something that we are very concerned about moving into the future as we start to raise a family.

I'm interviewing for a possible promotion today and I think I'm as ready as I possibly can be. I hope it all goes  well because I think it will present a good challenge for myself and I think I can be very successful. Only time will tell! I feel like it's a win-win for me though: I love the team I'm on now, so if I don't get it I get to stay with them through the next year, and if I do get it it is a promotion with better pay and closer to our house! So I'm feeling very positive, though still nervous because I absolutely dread interviews! So here's to the gods and goddesses watching over me today! Help me stay calm!

Hope all of you are having a Happy Halloween!!!!

That kind of day

It almost feels like it's a bad monday and my week is starting all over again. I already need another vacation from work and I've only been back about a month. I'm frustrated with the people around me, thought I love the company I work for. I recently got feedback of my job performance, and while mostly positive there were a few negative comments. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect and absolutely take feedback well and work to improve on any weaknesses....I'm not by any means perfect that's for sure. But one or two of those negative comments felt like a personal hit on me and my personality. Some one went as far as to say that they didn't think I was capable of 'appreciating' someone. That one cut me like a knife, because it is probably the most opposite of what I try and do at work. I appreciate everyone I work with and thank them for their hard work everyday, even if it isn't up to what I would consider hard work. I was in tears last night and woke up this morning sick to my stomach to go into work. I just don't even know how to act anymore. My lovely husband says that I need to take it with a grain of salt and to look at the rest of the feedback. My bosses are obviously happy so do I let someone who works under me, ruin my heart like that and break me down like I haven't been broken down in a long time? I'm not sure where to go from here, I just know that I don't know how much more my heart/head/feelings can take. I think it's time to explore other options of employment....

Here's to hoping the rest of my day gets better and not letting negative or hurtful things attack me.

Update: Happy!!

Hi readers!

Well, I've started a second blog, so this one will be dedicated to my life as a wife, and mom to my puppies and our adventures life takes us on. This past weekend my husband's sister just got married! Her new husband is one of our good friends and co-workers and we couldn't be more happy for them. It was a beautiful weekend of family, friends and love and I was so excited to be a part of it as one of my sister in law's bridesmaids. It was a really neat experience to get to have my own wedding a month ago, and then get a different view as a bridesmaid. Let me tell you, it was way more enjoyable as a bridesmaid, but definitely just as tiring!!

Congratulations to Zach and Erin, we wish you the most love and happiness this world has to offer you two. Remember that you will always have each other and that more than anything, will get you through life's toughest situations.

Next up on the list! A friends wedding to attend on October 1st! It's down in Southern Colorado, so I'm sure I will have some beautiful pictures to post.

Utterly Disgusted.....

So, I just finished watching Episode 3 of Season 2 of 16 and Pregnant. Normally, I don't make it habit to watch reality TV, but hey Stephen's at work, and the dog is sleeping...so I'm bored. MTV also hosted a live chat after show. I was UTTERLY APPALLED at how some women around this country can be so ruthless and hurtful. The people participating in this chat were ripping apart Valerie, the 15 year old young mother featured on the episode. Everything from calling her stupid, lazy, slutty, and a bad mother. Now, while it's clearly not the ideal situation to get pregnant at 15 by a guy who is so up and down with his priorities, that he doesn't know which is up...BUT that gives you NO RIGHT at attack someone you do not even know. You don't know the personal stories that were not shown on MTV, that most likely ended up on the cutting room floor. There was one particular girl, I won't give her the respect of calling her a woman, who was taking it as far as telling other young/single/married mothers that they should have 'closed their legs', calling them lazy and irresponsible, even if in the personal stories of some, they chose to take precautions using birth control. Common fact: THE ONLY 100% EFFECTIVE FORM OF BIRTH CONTROL IS ABSTINENCE! AND before you go on about how I must be a member of some crazy religious group...I am not. But the forms of birth control available to women are not 100% effective and never have been. There is always at least a 1% chance you could get pregnant if you are sexually active. And if someone finds themselves in a bad situation, the majority of men and women step up to the responsibility of parenthood, even it's not what was part of the plan. Strangers do not have the right to bash other people for personal choices.

But this is not the point of my post. The point of my post is that I do not understand how SO MANY PEOPLE around this country can be so hateful, negative, judgmental, and petty. Unless someone knows your personal story....tell them to stuff it. The only reason they are trying to put heat on you....is because they are clearly unhappy with themselves. I saw a number of women defend themselves to this girl, which they are not obligated to do by any means. But I give them kudos for standing up to someone who is out to hurt others she doesn't even know. Any young/unmarried/married/single parents: parenthood is hard at any age and I respect you for trying your best to raise your children to the best of your abilities! Karma is bitch.....and those who work hard will be rewarded. Those who are not....will be taken care of in their own time.

Today's Mood: Hopeful!

Hi all! I'm just sitting, enjoying my day off and spending time with Spud, before I go clean our wreck of house. First, Woo Scott Brown for winning the Mass. Senate seat. This is one step in the direction of the government actually listening to what the PEOPLE want. Contrary to what certain people who are in power think, this country was founded on freedom and liberty. That does not mean making decisions and forcing through bills because YOU think you know what the PEOPLE WANT. Clearly, Demos, you don't. The President's job approval rating is down the tubes, and all I have to say is thankfully people are recognizing that this is not the direction they wanted their country to go. But I say to all of you, that is what happens when people vote based off of what their friends say, what the news says, and what makes you 'cool'. Do you own research and stand behind your own decisions. That is my rant...

On a second note, Congratulations to my pseudo in-laws, Zach and Erin! They have just purchased their first home together! Luckily, it's about 10 blocks North of Stephen and I, so we are looking forward to having family so close! Plus the dogs love hanging out together!! This weekend we will be helping them move and get everything settled. Sometimes I feel like we are still getting settled! Anyways, congrats you two! Enjoy it!

New Year, New Goals!

Hi Everyone,
Obviously its been a long time since I have posted. Stephen and I have been busy with fixing up the house in small doses, all while working and trying to make decisions based on the fate of my store. Since the government is deciding to take their sweet ass time (what?? shocker right?) 90 + Team Members lives are hanging by a thread, not that they actually care. So in dealing with the stresses with that, the house, the dog, and paying our bills...hadn't left much time for writing!

As it's a new year, I'm turning over a new leaf. This will of course include updates about what's new with our little family, but its also going to be my place to vent, scream, yell, and bitch about whatever I feel is getting to me or whats going on around myself. I'm sure this is an open invitation for people to get upset, hurt, pissed off by what i say, so i'm saying this once: If you don't like it, don't read it. I'm not looking to argue with anyone about any topic, i just want to be able to vent. so please respect that. Thanks!!!

First, We'll start tomorrow after we see who wins the Massachusetts Senate Seat!!!

Quick Update!

Ok, so according to the last post, we were waiting on the second approval from the bank for that house. Well in all that waiting, we still went out a looked at other houses, just in case another presented itself. Well one did! Right now we are 9 days away from closing on this house in Thornton. We were supposed to close on they 7th, but it was looking like that there could be some loan issues, so we had to back up and resubit the loan paperwork. It only pushed the closing back by a bit, and our lender said if we could push it through quicker, we definitely would. So we are just waiting for the approval on the loan and to get the appraisal redone. I will post more once we sign all the papers, or if something else happens. Not to mention pictures!! Keep your fingers crossed for us, we have been looking for almost a year now and have had lots of bumps in the road...but this one feels like it's it!!!!